The Father’s Love

At the beginning of the week we slept in the Atlanta airport, had a layover in Texas, flew into Costa Rica, and crossed the border into Nicaragua.

We have been keeping a distance this past week at the farm to respect those here from our travel, and it has honestly been very humbling taking this week of rest. I came into Nicaragua desiring to serve the Lord with all of my heart, mind, soul, and strength……. And then I have had to sit around and rest. I wanted to hit the ground running, BUT this week has been so so good for my relationship with God. I have been able to grow deeply in the love our father has for us, and how to move the love I have for Him from my head to my heart. I mean, isn’t the most important commandment to Love the Lord with all your heart, mind, soul, and strength? Doesn’t He tell us to seek Him with our whole heart, and then we will find Him? But how often are we seeking with our whole heart? What are we sacrificing in our life to give God all of ourselves? 

In America something we strive for is to always stay busy. I have learned that feeling still can correlate to laziness and boredom in my head. And let me tell you there is a HUGE difference between laziness and rest. I have been filled up in so many ways this past week, and each time it is from when I have sat in the Lords presence. Specifically in His love.

I have been reading this book about sonship. This book dives deeply how every person desires security, love, affirmation, and praise. Sadly, today so many people look for this outside the one relationship we so deeply need. The relationship that brings the greatest love EVER. This is a relationship with God, our Father, creator of all things. We are His sons and daughters. In the fathers love there is no rejection. Granted, I often struggle with believing if the Lord hears my cry for help or even notices me. I often doubt the great love He has for me, BUT He often continually reminds me how He sees me.

He reminded me of His love this week. We were working on the farm and there was a man from a church here in Nicaragua that came up to me and told me(in Spanish so someone had to translate) that he saw how hard I was working and how I have such a servant heart. He said that my work on the farm increased his Faith in God. LIKE WHAT. Right before we were working that morning I asked God if He saw me, and then I had this interaction. I’m that moment God knew I needed to feel needed. That I needed to feel wanted. He knew that I was desiring feeling seen by my father that loves me. 

I just want to encourage those reading that the Lord loves you so so much, and He sees you. He sees all of you- your cries, your doubts, all of it. This past year I have struggled seeing His love, but when you actually seek Him, you will find it.